When I Fall In Love

When I fall in love,
I want to be
with her
always;

In happiness,
to smile with her,
and be the one
to hug her near.

In sadness,
to cry with her,
and be the one
to dry her tears.

When I fall in love,
I will spend my
every waking
and sleeping
moments
with her

and catch each
moment in its
eternally
lovely
form.

When I fall in love,
I will miss her
the very moment
I say 'goodbye'

and my heart
will yearn for
the very moment
I say ‘hello'.

When I fall in love,
all my old hurts
and pains
will seem
lost and
faded
away

and I will be
strong and
brave
once
again.

When I fall in love,
I want you
to be happy
always, ever

and feel like
the happiest
person
of them
all . . .

Because that's

what I will feel,

when I fall in love,

with you.

Where Is My Lovely One?

With her smile and swing of neck,
back - look as goodbye,
steals the evening joytrail.
Like a plane in the sky,
to holiday, summer away.
A clear blue sky
in the summer evening.

Where does she move and how?
When she goes to someone else
does she move like that too?
or do they see that.

It is a lovely thing to fall,
fall, fall in love.
in love with a girl,
enchanted lips of smiles,
and happy eyes of light,
not even I saw in
Cleopatra this shine.

seven kisses,
for seven days,
of this months meeting,
in her arms, empty and emptied.

seven roses for my love.
Love, a prism of crystal light
a rainbow through a glass
refracting colour light, bright.

Ah my lovely one, .
of seven kisses,
of seven roses,
and will she think of me?

Will she think of me
after the perfume waft has faded,
and I a shuffling slow breathless
and no longer handsome.

Will they be pressed twist pages
where this poem rests,
close to our breast.

For love is not foolish,
nor do roses fade.

My First Love

Youth took its accounting:
My First Love sped past,
Painful and hardening,
As was its task.

My first taste of life,
(And a piece of my soul)
That First Love left me wiser,
But left my heart empty and cold.

I tried to laugh and sing,
Seeming not to mind;
When all the time I was crying,
My heart was breaking inside.

But time is the greatest of healers,
And in time I laughed far better.
Yet, inside my heart was still cold;
I lived my life still bitter.

A second love, a third love,
And finally a fourth.
None seemed to matter,
None had any worth.

And then, at a special party
I finally started to have fun;
For I met a special woman --
She was the special one.

She was quiet and shy,
And didn't say much;
But I sighed at her look,
And I trembled at her touch.

We danced for hours and hours,
Quiet and happy at last;
And my mind went back to another,
Of a place and time long past.

"Is this what the Good Lord intended,
When my First Love left my life?
For this woman I hold in my arms
To one day become my wife?"

And so it came to pass,
And I thank the Lord each hour
For the vastness of his wisdom
And the immensity of his power.

We lived a lot together,
And loved even more;
A child came our way,
Which I thank the Good Lord for.

Now the years have long slipped past,
And things seldom remain the same.
Yet, at times I think of that First Love,
And wonder -- what was her name?

Love At First Sight

Is there such a thing as love at first sight?
That's the question I used to ask
Until I laid eyes on you.
How is it possible to feel so much for a
stranger, a passerby?
Love has no limits, no color, no time.
That's when I realized I had fallen in love -
Love at first sight.

“Pretty thing Called L.O.V.E”

“Pretty thing Called L.O.V.E”

it’s so beautiful to feel it

it’s so sweet to taste it

make me fly to the sky

make me insane

will you be my drug

To keep me alive

Yeah be my drug

Please be my drug

You’re way much better than heroine

Fill my empty worlds with your poisonous virus

Then I awake

You’re already thousand miles away

You forget the promises we made

You Left me out all alone

left me lifeless

you watch me bleeding

I thought I lost you

Nothing that I can do but make love to memories

I crossed my heart to die

I wanna overdose on your kiss again

It’s pretty thing called L.O.V.E

“Diary”

“Diary”

Can you keep me this secret

For not telling these to anyone

I have killed her

And I just buried her

This knife shed blood

These eyes shed tears

Can you keep me a secret

For not confiding in someone

That I slayed her

Just me and you

Who knows this beautiful secret

We’re gonna make it safe

We’re gonna take it to our grave

And no one knows about it

It’s not supposed to be like this

I’ll take the blame

But that won’t heal my wounds

Can you keep me this secret

“You are a Liar”

“You are a Liar”

Life is Lies

Lies are Life

You are a Liar

Put me on a betrayal

Left me in a shattered world

I choke you in my every sweet-dream

I laughed at your dead body

Show me your sins

And I’ll confess my sins

I would love nothing more in the world besides you

My love what’s come between you and me

Look me in the eyes

Feel my anger

You are the mistaken

I would have killed you in real

I have killed you in a dream

Love is lies

Lies are love

You are a Liar

Put me on betrayal

“Killing me, It feels good #2”

“Killing me, It feels good #2”

Should I think twice

To commit suicide?

Will they wonder where I’am tonight

I left my diary on my desk

It’d be the last page I wrote

Can’t wait till the sun come in the next morning

Light up my room and find my dead body

I would never coming back

I’ve found a better place to rest my soul

Now I can sing my melody

Inside the grave

Where you just buried my bone

This where I live

This is where I rest in peace

“Killing me, It feels good #1”

“Killing me, It feels good #1”

When there is no one else care

When there is no where else to go

When there is no day to feel alive

When there is no place to belong

Then Slit my wrist it fells so good

Watch it bleed

This time is over

The pain rush to my head

But it feels so good

Who’s take the blame?

For all the s**t that I dug for a years

I take the blame

For all the s**t that I dug for a years

I take the blame

For all tears that I spent day and night

Then Slit my wrist it fells so good

Watch it bleed

This time is over

The pain rush to my head

But it feels so good

“Somebody has read my stupid poems (for the anonymous)”

"Somebody has read my stupid poems (for the anonymous)"

Hi I don't know what's your name
And even I'm not sure you are male or female
but thanks for read my poems
I live in this complicated world
and I'd like to show you my imaginative world
I just like to write
a thoughts that never could be share with
a words that never be confided with
a love letters that never could be unfold
by writing I could share my thoughts
by writing I could speak loud and clear
by writing I could show my unfold-love-letters
Writing give me
A little hope
A little dream
A little angel
to save me

Tonight I Dream, Tomorrow I Live

Ah! Do you dream at night? Is a dream of light or twilight, Of hope or of joy maybe? I describe it as an escape, A way of being happy In a world we can entirely shape. Ah! Did you dream last night? Mystical powers at hand, And energy replenished to the fullest. In fact, you dream to rest And live for a next sunlight. Am I truly right Or you don't understand? Ah! Did you live today? Watching, breathing and tasting The merry life of each day. Every element I'm sensing Has a value to my humble heart. Therefore I will be, for my part, What I am destined to be. Ah! Will you live tomorrow? Know that there is always a way Leading through our destiny. See it, feel it you may Staying on it won't be easy. So, take my hand and follow.

“Another night (I’m all alone)”

“Another night (I’m all alone)”

I lay my head upon my pillow

Staring at the empty wall

I think I had a lot of friends

But they never ever would call

It would be another night

That I’d spend my time alone in my bed room

All I can see is the sky full of sparkling stars

And I can see the moon lit up my little room through the window

She knows about this loneliness

She knows about this emptiness

Then she smile at me

Try not to make me feel blue

I guess it’s just like another night

Another night I’m all alone

"Emily : the Strange"

"Emily : The Stange"

Emily you're so weird to me
They all laughed at your dress
They all make fun of your glasses
but I could not stop looking at your eyes
your eyes could take me to the place I never been
all boys never like you much
neither the girls in the class
but I wish could take you home after school
though they will think I'm a such a fool
I wrote many poems for you before I go to sleeep
I kept it in my love letters
it never unfold
like the hidden words I never said to you
that
I-LOVE-YOU

Sadness

Am I to be happy? I dwell so deep within myself that I have never seen the light of day. The past never happened, the future will never come, and the present isn't real. Depression is a part of everyday life. The birds chirp for someone else, The day warms the lives of everyone, but me. Happiness lies near, but my mind won't let my heart reach for it, and happiness never knew. I live in a prison, solitary confinement. Fear is my guard. Nothing stops happiness from reaching me, only me from it. I am sure that if I can ever grasp it that the barrier will be forever shattered. How do you break through invisible bars? What is it like to touch something you've never had? I am confined to myself, Just me and my sadness.

"suicide poem"

Suicide Poem, A Sonnet

Was I bewitched so by the thin red line To notice not that time released its hold And let pale Iris snip the silver twine To steal sweet youth before it turned to gold. Existence now is not what I was told; No seraphim and harps to grace my ear, Just silence, painful silence, and the cold Discomfort of my masochistic fear, So icy cold, yet somehow seems to sear My soul until the ache's too much to bare, As mortal life mirages now appear: Intangible are they; away they tear. Mistake, it was; the curtain fell too soon When razor's edge did charm me like the moon.

Failure

To try and try and yet come up short, to hang my head while giving report, not able to make anything right, turns brightest day to darkest night. Amidst thoughts of strength to find myself weak brings a gut-wrenching pain of which my heart cannot speak. Failure has never been part of my plan. I curse times I don’t, when I know that I can. My standard, my goal, my hope is perfection, yet I am met with regret, rebuke and rejection. Failure is a companion I have grown to despise, its taunts and its laughs are not found in your eyes. In you I can see love, understanding and more. You think me a winner regardless life’s score. When I’ve nearly given up, drowning in failure, you life my life, my sight, my plight to the Savior. A loving like yours in this life is most glorious, although I’m imperfect with you and Christ I’m victorious.

Despair

If only the world could see what I feel then, would the world, know who I am I've loved, lost and feared the world for it is sometimes too much to bare Control, power, is what I fear for I am weak inside and full of pain I shout and cry, but knowing there is nobody there to hear me I swallow the shame and anger that lies beneath me I am lost to reality and living in time Though I am struggling through life and all that it offers, I am only human and that is what makes me . . . Me. Still, I wish for the happiness and pleasure that I have earned, but realize that, I have not yet overcome the world's greatest challenge Love! and how to accept it - I am ready to face my fears

Pain Of The Night Watch as this tear falls into empty space See it fall into life's nameless place Can you see the sparkle as it catches the light That sparkle once was happiness that is no longer in sight As it falls watch it, its color has changed From blue to bright red, it has a wide range There it goes all alone, it continues to fall With it, it takes the emotion, the emotion of all Wait, can you hear it? A sob has broke free Has shook the lungs cold, but yet it continues to be Here it comes, a force has been built between the eye A wall of shear water, it's now time to cry A shudder, a scream, darkness envelops your soul The darkness of the night has taken its toll

Losing

losing all I can see. nothing remains. dripping slowly away the tides recede and I stand alone. I look down from the precipice that is my life and wonder where the tides go. will they return to fill my gaping soul? or will the waters dry to flow no more and leave me standing and breathless? all I can do is wait. watching from my precipice, all I can do is wonder.

And Yet I Die

I see the stars sparkling so bright, Within the moon kissed sky. I hear the lark so sweetly sing, Amidst the morning dawn. I smell the flower full in bloom, And see their royal pomp. And yet some place so deep within, I'm shrouded and I'm closed. The brilliance there I can't see, In mists of misery. Enshrined inside, unable thus, To touch the warmth without. I gaze upon this passion spent, And yet . . . Inside I die.